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Osho on depression

Osho on Depression 

Remember this: Whenever you are depressed, wait for the moment that the depression goes. Nothing lasts forever; the depression will go. And when it leaves you, wait – be aware and alert – because after the depression, after the night, there will be a dawn and the sun will rise. If you can be alert in that moment. you will he happy that you were depressed. You will be grateful that you are depressed because only through your depression was this mint of happiness possible.

But what do we do? We move in an infinite regression We get depressed. Then we get depressed because of the depression: a second depression follows. If you are depressed. that′s okay! – nothing is wrong in it. It is beautiful because through it you will learn and mature. But then you feel badly. “Why do I get depressed? I should not get depressed.” Then you start fighting with the depression. The first depression is good, but the second depression is unreal. And this unreal depression will cloud your mind. You will miss the moment that would have followed the real depression.

When depressed, be depressed. Simply be depressed. Don′t get depressed about your depression. When depressed, simply be depressed. Don′t fight it, don′t create any diversion, don′t force it to go. Just allow it to happen; it will go by itself. Life is a flux; nothing remains the same. You are not needed; the river moves by itself, you don′t have to push it. If you are trying to push it, you are simply foolish. The river flows by itself. Allow it to flow.
When depression is there, allow it to be. Don′t get depressed about it. If you want to remove it sooner, you will get depressed. If you fight it, you will create a secondary depression that is dangerous. The first depression is beautiful, God-given. The second depression is your own. It is not God-given; it is mental. Then you will move in mental grooves. They are infinite.

If you get depressed, be happy that you are depressed and allow the depression to be. Then suddenly the depression will disappear and there will be a breakthrough. No clouds will be there and the sky will be clear. For a single moment, heaven opens for you. If you are not depressed about your depression you can contact, you can commune, you can enter this heavenly gate. And once you know it, you have learned one of the ultimate laws of life: that life uses the opposite as a teacher, as a back-ground.

(Osho – The New Alchemy: To Turn You On #8, The Silence That Follows the Storm)

Watching is the key to Meditation

“Watch your mind.”

“Don’t do anything – no repetition of mantra, no repetition of the name of god – just watch whatever the mind is doing. Don’t disturb it, don’t prevent it, don’t repress it; don’t do anything at all on your part. You just be a watcher, and the miracle of watching is meditation. As you watch, slowly mind becomes empty of thoughts; but you are not falling asleep, you are becoming more alert, more aware.”

“As the mind becomes completely empty, your whole energy becomes aflame of awakening. This flame is the result of meditation. So you can say meditation is another name of watching, witnessing, observing – without any judgment, without any evaluation. Just by watching, you immediately get out of the mind.”

-Osho

Ashram Life – The birth of Vaju

The year of 2011 was the hardest time in my life. I had been working my whole life towards having a successful career in music. Financially it was tough and I was feeling severely overworked. I had pushed myself to my absolute breaking point. On top of that my Love relationships were failing, I had grown unhealthy attachments which were the cause of all my suffering and I had fallen into self destructive behaviour and when I finally awoke in a hospital bed one morning I knew it was time for a change. So began my journey to the forest and to discover a magical place. – Samaya Ashram,  and the beautiful family of people there who accepted me with all my wounds and all my sadness and shone a light on me that would change my life forever!

 

As the sun rises I wake in my cabin to the sound of the forest birds singing their beautiful song. I walk out my front door and look over this magnificent 100 acre property to see wallabies playing and munching on the lush grass and plants. I make my way down to the meditation hall past the big banana trees. Its 6am and the prana energy and vital essence is strong in the air, I step inside embracing the peace that is present in the room. I take up a place next to my beautiful brothers and sister and turn my awareness inwards, allowing the movement of my thoughts to settle as i journey to my centre. We sit in silent meditation then listen to discourses from Osho to help expand our awareness and knowledge of the inner world. The sound of the bell eventually brings me back into my body and I mindfully make my way down to our eating place and fill my plate with rich nutritious cereals, nuts and fruit. I sit down in the garden to enjoy the morning sun as i eat my delicious breakfast picking the fresh herbs around me to add to my cup of tea.

There is peace among my friends as we all give gratitude for our beautiful surroundings enjoying a laugh and sharing our feelings and emotions. Breakfast finishes and I set out to do my daily work which today is deep in the forest building forest trails. Walking through my picturesque surroundings, the clean crisp forest air fills my lungs. I explore a world that seems so far from the life I left behind. I stop for a moment to think.. how did i get here, where am I… who am I?
I am here in this present moment, becoming aware, becoming awake. The work strengthens my body, lifting rocks , hauling logs and digging trenches… all part of this daily meditation in action exercise. 

Lunch time arrives, we gather together and join hands to chant “Om” 3 times and begin to indulge in a colourful meal filled with fresh greens and hearty grains. Our food is prepared according to the book “Tao of Health, Sex and Longevity” a diet our master Samaya has followed through out his life and is a testament to its benifits. An 83 year old man that can beat us all in an uphill race and can work digging lifting like he was 25 years old. After lunch the sun is shining brightly so I walk down to the waterfall to wash and soak in spring water. I stand naked in the river looking around.. Am i dreaming? This world around me is something I could only compare to things I have seen in the movies.. Its magical, sureal… breathtaking. I dive under the water and as i rise to the surface the water streams off my hair, i feel the old world i used to know wash away… all the stresses and anxiety of the city life, the constant doing and sickness of the outside world disappears. 

I meditate on the warm rocks and let the tropical sun dry my body and eventually head back to my cabin to read, meditate and play music on my porch as the sun sets over the green mountains. Dinner time arrives and i sit for another delectable meal, soaking up the great atmosphere of my beautiful family sharing the joyfulness they bring to my life.
The meal is filled with fresh vegetables grown right here in the Ashram gardens and it give us energy for the evening ahead. 7pm arrives which means it time to head back to the meditation hall. as I approach I can feel an energy shift. I step inside to see all the Ashramites dancing frantically to the high energy sounds that fill the room. This is the ritual for every night, “dance meditation”. We dance Rejoicing and celebrating life with every movement. Letting go of everything, becoming totally ecstatic and energised! The music builds and builds and eventually it stops abruptly and we all freeze in silence. I hear a voice “connect with this feeling of Aliveness!” after a few minutes of silence we sit in a circle for more silent meditation. Then we hear a few words from Samaya the elder of the Ashram. He will touch on words from “Osho” and go into a sharing which is the moment we can have a chance to share feelings, emotions and topics that are part of our lives. 

We hear stories of love and intimacy between people, emotional struggles some might be facing and all being expressed openly with no judgement from anyone. The people hear have been an inspiration to me from day one and the more I dedicate myself to the practice of meditation and the teachings of Osho Magical things that are starting to happen within me. After a beautiful evening of meditation and sharing with my friends I make my way back to my cabin. I look in the mirror… Who am I?? My name is Dhyan Vaju. This is the name I have been given by Samaya. Taking on a new name is a way of leaving the old world behind and surrendering fully to Ashram Life. My friends call me Vaju which is a sanskrit name for the great and powerful Hindu Deity that is the lord of the winds, holder of the atmosphere. 

Dhyan is the prefix which means Meditation. I reside in my cabin for the rest of the night reading and playing music and some nights connecting with a close friend. In these moments of total awareness where I have experienced pure bliss.. in dancing, meditation, walking in the forest and making love. being totally present in that moment is where ecstasy can be found. The last few weeks I have experienced some of the hugest highs of my lifetime, with no drugs.. just a clean body. celebrating life, aware of all the beautiful things that surround me in every moment. The birds in the trees, the koalas, the magnificent insects with vibrant colours, the snakes making love in the sand. This is my new life… The life of Dhyan Vaju.

My battle with depression and how I kicked its ass!

With so many people in the world battling depression today I felt this story was too important not to share with the world.

Beating depression was the biggest challenge I have ever faced in my life. Many years ago I never believed there was an illness called depression, I thought it was just a word people used for someone that was feeling down or couldn’t get there shit together. That was until around the year 2009, when this dreaded illness had taken a strong hold on me. Life’s pressures and my own internal changes sent me on a downward spiral to the point of suicidal depression. I was constantly overcome with negative thoughts that plagued my mind every second of the day.There was no release!

I was stuck in complete darkness, I isolated myself socially and would often spend many days even weeks just laying in bed with no will to even step outside and face the world. I felt like I was dying, like I was old and ageing, like a fruit that was once ripe but had now developed brown spots and wrinkles and was left to decompose like compost into the earth. I felt I was worthless and began to neglect myself and as things became worse I started to turn to drugs and alcohol to escape the pain and hope that one day I would not wake up. To say things were grey would be an understatement.

How did this happen to me?

My life was great, I had a family that loved me dearly and I had experienced many great achievements in my life, performing music in a band around the country and abroad and had great friends that loved and supported me.

But the pressures of life had taken their grip on me, financial strain, failing love relationships and my own ego felt under pressure to fit into a certain stereotype and tick all the boxes one should as they approached 30. All this was starting to tip the scales on my mental state and escapism through substance abuse felt like the only relief. This went on for over a year and never seemed to be getting any better. I’d often plan out my own suicide but thankfully would never take it to the extreme. I became unpleasant to be around and slowly became alone, how could anyone love me, If i couldn’t even love myself?

Things all changed one night when I took a large dose of drugs and admitted myself into hospital, that night while laying in bed with an IV drip in my arm I awoke to some sort of angel, it was like a messenger that gave me some hope and showed me something beautiful, something much more deeper than the experience I had been going through.

I knew when I awoke the next morning I had to take massive action! I needed extreme change! So the next day I left my residence in the city and moved to an Ashram, a spiritual centre in the forest for the next few months to start to detoxify and cleans my soul and my spirit.

This was not a quick fix from my depression, It was only the beginning of a long journey that took me to the core of my darkness to face it head on to learn the tools to eventually conquer it completely and stand strong and happy today!

The Ashram showed me a teaching from the East, the witnessing of meditation. It was a journey that may have taken over a year but the consistent effort and strengthening my connection to a higher frequency was able to slowly bring a new awareness to my life that empowered me to shift my thinking and see that all I had created in my mind was an illusion and to finally see the truth. I found my light and shone it on my darkness.

I eventually regenerated my life force and stood strong and proud with Love in my heart for everything around me and most importantly Myself! I began performing music again and took my experiences to the highest highs, I was able to have amazing relationships again and enjoy the experience and connection that as human beings we are capable of experiencing. I travelled to other countries and explored foreign places and till this day feel like my life is only just beginning. The once rotting fruit is now a fresh seed spreading its branches to the sky soaking up all the rays of sunshine and beauty life is sending me.

But how did I do it? How did I really conquer this beast? I want to share with you the Key Ingredients I used to beat my depression.

Step 1. Practice meditation The meditation was the first vital step. Meditation is the art of witnessing. To become a witness and separate yourself completely from your mind. It created an awareness in me that helped me see that my darkness was not a part of me. Do this everyday. I recommend at least 2 x half hour session to start with, as you go deeper with it, increase it to more. Make this your ritual. Osho meditations are great, in particular “Kundalini and Dynamic” as well as sitting in silence. The meditation will result in some of the following steps to become natural.

Step 2. Nutrition The right food to bring yourself out of the darkness. A vegan diet made of mostly raw foods. Food that is non-violent is essential to bringing in lighter energy. Depression feeds on darkness. So eating foods that are violent are only going to continue to feed the darker emotions that exist within you. You are already sensitive and If you consume an animal that has been living in a cage for its entire life, in darkness, in pain , in torture this will only fuel your darker emotions. Eat food that is colourful. Alkalinity is important, which are greener foods to aid purification physically and mentally.

Step 3. Exercise The body needs to move, it needs to stretch. Endorphins will be released, the lymphatic system will be regenerated all that good stuff will start to come in. You will look better and as a result develop more self love and respect for yourself. The list goes on and on.. you know its good for you so go hit the gym, do some yoga,  go running.. now!

Step 4. Niacin This step will be particularly important if you have been using drugs or alcohol in the past. Niacin B3 is a natural vitamin that causes a flushing sensation throughout the body known as a ‘niacin flush’. There needs to be a high level of detoxification performed to inturn hit the reset button on your physical body and clear the path for cellular regeneration. I recommend up to 5000milligrams per day if depression is at its highest. If you want more information on niacin google “Dr Abram Hoffer Niacin”.

Step 5. Experience Nature. Connect yourself with nature, this is so important for our wellbeing. Take off your shoes, connect your feet to the earth whilst the sun is beating down on you. It is your birthright to be in tune with nature and to be in tune with existence. The birds, the flowers, the ocean,  the breeze. Meditate on these things put all your focus on the beauty that surrounds you and watch your inner world transform.

Step 6. Rejoice! Just live the moment with intensity and totality. Live it with as much joy as possible, with as much love as possible, with no fear, no guilt. This existence is yours and this moment is a gift — don’t let it go to waste. Celebrate, Dance. Connect with friends and family. Don’t hold back!